`My journey of Complex Complications and Happy Happiness

Friday, November 23, 2007

One of the little girl from the pioneer batch that my mum used to babysit when she was young got 253 points for her PSLE... (hah my mum can add this 'accomplishment' to her CV. HAHAHA)

Time flies.

Published at: 4:04 PM

Sunday, November 11, 2007

This few days I have been reconsidering my career path. Should I continue going to Big banks where the politics are so oh-my-goshingly high level or should I go to small companies doing what I think I might like with lesser money but potentail-ly better in the long run?

One of my friend have been damn wei da... Although she has been looking for a job for 4-5 months without much progress, she saw an advert and although she liked it very much and has applied for it, she urged me repeatedly to go and apply it. She did it although it might decrease her chances of getting her job because she knows I will like it as well and she said she rather I get the job than someone else if she didnt...

Sigh... I really dont know where to find such nice, unselfish friends...

My motto in life after all these years and especially after the bad incidences is "Know the people who treats you well and treat them even better. Know the people who wants to compete with you and compete with them and make sure you win. Know the people who use you and ignore them (NOT make use of them back lah! remember I believe in Karma....).

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....

I took so many naps that my body is aching soooooo badly... and my head is constantly heavy/groggy/dizzy from too much sleep.

Published at: 5:20 PM

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Yesterday was my last day at UBS!!

As I left Suntec yesterday, I felt kind of sians cos it really feels like I have not achieved much in the last 2 years...

Some of my colleagues were quite sweet to me. Even the new secretary whom I knew for barely a week gave me her job hunter's friend's contacts in case I need it.

My best eat snake buddies treated me to lunch twice even though the lunches blew his daily budget of $40!

Boss was especially good to me the past two days, calling time and again to check on me, to guide me through every step. I think I caused him much distress over the YHF accusation. Felt really really bad when my colleague in HK told me that he looked terrible the day of the YHF incident. But well, at least I can tell that he does appreciates me although he has never said anything the past two years I have been with him and although he said I am stubborn right after all the positive things. And best is he even volunteered to be my reference and helped me look through my CV! Where to find a nicer boss?

SH and taiwan Viki also called me and cried really hard when they heard that I was leaving... Maybe I should have told them earlier... Kind of touched by their reaction although they really cried non stop and although they almost made me cry with their tears and although I dont really treat them all that well sometimes (occasionally lah oops!).

One of the other onboarder who used to always argue with me over work actually took the bus specially from ORQ to have a cup of starbucks with me. And after that she sent an email to boss saying it is a great loss to the bank that I am leaving and that she enjoyed working with Cyn and I despite our healthy arguments which I thought was really nice and sweet and also a bit funny. And I think Cynthia got a bit red-eyed when she read the email.

Hate farewells but I am kind of glad to leave some of the things behind. The things that we usually dread, the business lunches, the strategising, the hypocrites, the crystal jades, the irritating ones, the idiotic ones, the political ones.... But I am really afraid I will not meet another boss as nice as this one although at times I may have my complains about him but its really the help and support that he gave me during times of need that is important.

Wonder what I will be doing next after I am thoroughly rotten.

Published at: 2:14 PM

Thursday, November 01, 2007

As I am packing my bag, preparing my clothes and making a mental checklist of the things i have to do tomorrow, it suddenly struck me that I seem to be preparing to go to the gallows. Of course, with as much dignity as i can muster. I kept thinking of K and C and the things they told me at starbucks.

It also struck me that life is filled with lots of ironies as I was looking at my blackberry with the red beeping light prompting me of all the unread emails. The emails that would be meaningless to me soon and the emails that I might not have to reply and the emails that I want to reply for the sake of the people but dont know if I have a chance to finish replying and the emails that I technically can ignore.

I also know now how it feels to have your doctor tell you you have 2 more months to live... Knowing it will happen but there is nothing for you to do but wait. Its exactly the same.

Published at: 11:26 PM